Kiss me the way I know you can
Shock me with your passion
Hot enough to spark a blaze
Hot enough to burn for days
Mystified by the way a simple touch can conjure up crazy feeling and complicate the way my mind works
Your words can destroy a carefully constructed calm demeanor,
turning me into a quivering teenager, unable to form proper sentences to tell you how much I want you.
I didn’t realize how much I needed you until I lost you
Like oxygen, I took for granted you would always be here
My life force, the reason behind the heartbeat that keeps me alive
I messed up and cut off my supply of good love
now I suffocate in my own stupidity and foolish pride.
FEELING LIKE A CHILD
I sit here and try to think of something clever to say, in hopes that you will look at me in the same way I look at you. My soul feels old with troubles and worries, yet when I am with you I feel like an inexperienced youth. Like the years upon years of knowledge that I hold are nothing, like the remains of card house after a hurricane. I just want you to hold me and tell me that I am not as alone as I feel right now.
I feel like a vital part of me is breaking away.
Like it can feel the poison eating away at my soul
and it knows
it sees
it recognizes the self-destructive wave
that sweeps through my world
Every once and awhile.
I just gotta ride it out,
wade through the madness of too many drugs, not enough sex and way too many thoughts cluttering my brain.
Back to wishing I had that ‘Cain to even out the ups and the downs.
Level my head
make the thoughts flow like blood from a smooth cut
and the pain goes away.
